:: Dain's blog of eternal stench. ::

:: Saturday, October 12, 2002 ::

I can't get over her... and she's not helping at all.

The two reasons I can't get over her are because I don't know why the hell the relationship ended, and because I feel gypped out of the relationship.

I just wish she'd give me the second chance. It's a simple plan. We date for 3 weeks. If she still doesn't have feelings for me at the end of 3 weeks, then we break up, and still be friends.

It's easy, it lets me get over her. Why does she refuse to help?

It's either that, or she tells me why she broke up with me... :/

It's as if she doesn't care about me at all...

And it's official... I do still love her :/...
:: Dain 10:20 AM [+] ::
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I was having doubts about Tegan using me to get over Phil, but they've gone away. Which is good, because the whole time I knew that it wasn't true, I just couldn't stop thinking about it. I know her better than that, and she wouldn't use someone like that.

Anyway, I really really need to talk to her in person. Just the two of us. There's some things I need to get off my chest, and one thing I need to know the answer to. Well, technically there's two things I need to know the answer to, but I don't expect to ever get an answer to the first one. Especially since it's been like.. 2 months since I last asked her, and she never could think of the answer.

Well, whatever. I need to get over her, but I can't. I feel gypped out of the relationship, and she's pretty much refusing to give me a response when I keep asking for a second chance.

Oh, and for those of you that are wondering what the japanese words in my poem "Wakaru" mean, they mean:
wakararenakatta: "Not understood"
itawararenakatta: "Not cared for/consoled"
nakusareta: "Lost something"
ekiyuu wa dearenai: "Not good friends"
Tiigan, aishiteta: "Tegan, I loved you."
:: Dain 4:57 PM [+] ::
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Do any of you know exactly how much it hurts to be told you're such a sweetheart... such a great person.. so nice.. told that you can have any person you want... then be unable to have the one person you DO want?

I'd just like you to know that it hurts. It really fucking hurts.
:: Dain 9:34 AM [+] ::
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Well... what's happened since the last time I updated?

Paul came back, and thanks to him, I now have a keychain attached to the safety pin on the crotch of my pants. It says "Randy".

Ha.

Wow, I'm just SUPER EXCITING!

Oh yeah... and Andrew Rice and Matt Davis got in a fight. Rice broke Matt's collarbone. Paul helped Matt up, and pretty much co-ordinated the whole medical attention effort by telling JimBag to get a teacher or someone. JimBag and Steve Disher went in to get Matt some help.

Char, Mike, Ally, Paul, and various other people who I didn't take the time to identify attempted to help Matt stay concious.

Matt sitting, lying down, going into shock. Ambulance came, Police showed up. Die Fuehrerin told everyone to give Matt space.

Matt went to Hospital.

Where do I come into this? I don't. I ignored the fight. I stood around to see how Matt was doing. I backed off and talked to Dave and Devon when Die Fuehrerin told people to back off. I co,mented with them about how Rice and Patrino were idiots.
:: Dain 4:22 PM [+] ::
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