:: Dain's blog of eternal stench. ::

:: Saturday, September 28, 2002 ::

That's it.. fuck this shit...

I'm not saying that I'm planning on killing myself... But it wouldn't suprise me if I did end up dying... I just don't fucking care anymore... I'm sick of being treated like I don't fucking matter... like I don't have fucking feelings... even my own family doesn't fucking care...

It doesn't fucking help that I've been crying since the moment I woke up...

Which High School Label Do You Fit?

Before this whole Avril shit, people thought you were weird and stupid for dressing the way you did.

Take the test at [clinically insane]
:: Dain 3:37 PM [+] ::
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Why does everyone insist that today should be a happy day for me?

It's not. At all. I'm alone, I'm unemployed, and I fucking hate it...
:: Dain 11:43 AM [+] ::
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No matter what I do
It never changes
Always wanting what I can't have

They say things change in time
But this hasn't
Always wanting what I can't have

I can't escape
My own feelings
Always wanting what I can't have

I think I may
Still be in love
Always wanting what I can't have

Not just people
But emotions as well
Always wanting what I can't have

I may start to feel them
But they are always fleeting
Always wanting what I can't have

Is it too much to ask
To be happy for once?
Always wanting what I can't have

Always wanting what I can't have
Always wanting what I can't have
Always longing...
:: Dain 11:05 AM [+] ::
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How very, very true...
:: Dain 10:07 AM [+] ::
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I'd like to apologize to everyone for being such an asshole lately...

I'd especially like to apologize profusely to Heather, Sarah and Tegan. I've just been making assumptions... and getting pissed off for all the wrong reasons.

It's not all of you that I'm pissed at, it's myself and my life.

So, I'm sorry.
:: Dain 2:38 PM [+] ::
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I love how it seems that she only cares when it's convenient for her...

Yes, almost one week ago, I was told "I've got 5th spare now, so I'll come visit you." Not once has one of those visits happened. Today was the one day that one of those visits might have actually helped me have a good day.

Today, I've felt sick, got better, got depressed, got pissed off, and have had a generally horrible day. One visit from her would've made it all go away.

But who gives a damn about me, right?

...

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...

I can't open myself up to anyone I can't believe in anyone at all
and I can't see anything the light that shines is disappearing, soon it will be gone
unable to open myself up this is my weakness, my past
I can get what I want, yet if I do, the kindness I'm holding onto will slip away

my heart is shuttered, soon it will break apart
stifling my tears, I laugh day after day
my heart has shown me that believing is nothing
those hypocrites killed me

I can get what I want, yet if I do, the kindness I'm holding onto will slip away
the typical answer is when you die, you'll be reborn, come back again

my heart is shuttered, soon it will crumble away
stifling my tears, I scream day after day
my heart has left me with a belief in strength
my own heart killed me

- Dir en Grey, "-mushi-"
:: Dain 7:27 PM [+] ::
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I'd just like to say right now, that if the only reason you're going to message me on msn is to yell at me for not going out, then fuck you.

I've been sick, which I've stated multiple times, so I haven't been getting out of the house. I'm feeling better today, but if all you're going to do is yell at me, then fuck it.

I don't need any of this shit right now. I need someone to talk to about my problems, not someone to act like an ass with.
:: Dain 4:56 PM [+] ::
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i am ...

AN ELEPHANT

according to the rebelsnail.net assessment. how jesus are you?

:D

(Actually, I didn't even answer that properly... I'll go do that now...)

My honest answer:

i am ...

VERY JESUS

according to the rebelsnail.net assessment. how jesus are you?

:: Dain 3:43 AM [+] ::
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Wee :D

:: Dain 4:02 PM [+] ::
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I have my very own Oekaki board, but it only works when I'm on the computer.

So if I'm on the computer, feel free to draw here:

Dain's Oekaki board of goodness!
:: Dain 3:59 PM [+] ::
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