:: Dain's blog of eternal stench. ::
Uhh.. basically what I be feeling every time I choose to update.| [::..necropolis..::] | |||
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| [::..currently..::] | |||
| being: bored. | |||
| blaring: nothing. | |||
| consuming: a glass of water... mmm.. water. | |||
| conversing: the voices in my head. | |||
| deadly sin: envy. | |||
| dying of: ovarian cancer? | |||
| expecting: stuff. | |||
| hating: my situation. | |||
| wishing: Blatantly Obvious. | |||
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| :: There is a monkey in my pants.com [>] :: Yeah. I've actually got this site up now. |
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| :: Buy me Stuff [>] | |||
| :: Homepage of EVIL [>] :: Ok, it's Josh's site. |
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| :: Video Game Theater [>] :: A site on which I will be ranting about and reviewing games. |
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| :: They Fight Crime! [>] |
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| :: Guitartabs.cc [>] :: Where Dain goes for all his Guitar tab needs! |
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| :: punkhardcore [>] :: Hoo yeah. Punk-o-rific. Including tabs and lyrics of punk songs! |
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| :: OtakuWorld! [>] :: Your source for KiSS dolls since.. whenever it was that it started! |
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:: Friday, May 17, 2002 ::
-_-...:: Wednesday, May 15, 2002 ::
Yeah, I did the going on Friday thang. And I saw her. And then I froze up and didn't say a word. *hits self*
Oh well, there's always next week.
:: Dain 4:38 PM [+] ::
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BAH!:: Tuesday, May 14, 2002 ::
I had finally decided to stop caring about shit.. completely lose all my inhibitions.. And talk to the girl I've had a crush on for 5 years. Then what happens? The school changes the schedule around for 3 days and I don't know about it. Hence, my plot was foiled. Damn you school! Damn you to hell!
Oh well.. I'll just have to do it Friday then.
:: Dain 1:46 PM [+] ::
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Mou daremo ai senai...ai subeki mono wo matanai:: Monday, May 13, 2002 ::
I was listening to this song earlier today, and thought "Hey, this is basically how I was feeling in yesterday's blog entry." So I'm posting the lyrics.
GLAY - Heavy Gauge
Ai wo wasuretai kono sekai no owari to tomo ni
Itsumo nemurenai kakuseisu mayonaka no kono jikan
Before I'm dead kanashii wake ja nai sukoshi dake kokyuu ga tomaru
Before I'm dead sabishii wake ja nai omoide ga chi wo nagasu
Baka ni ki ga hayai kinrin no yabou wa ika ni...?
Ashita wo shinjinai iya sore wa kitai suru koto to onaji ka...
Before I'm dead ryoume wo fusaidara shinjitsu ga mieru darou ka?
Before I'm dead doushite ki zukanai rekishi kara manabenai?
Heavy gauge kanashimi no kiwa ni tachisukumu futari ni
Ima sejou no ame ga furisosoide...
Ato ikutsu no yume wo fumeba yasuraka ni nemureru no ka?
Mou daremo ai senai...ai subeki mono wo matanai
Oh mijime de mukuchi na kono yoru ni
Itsuwari demo soba ni ite yo yaseta to wo nigirishime
Heavy gauge kanashimi no kiwa ni tachisukumu futari ni
Ima sejou no ame ga furisosoide...
Ato ikutsu no yume wo fumeba yasuraka ni nemureru no ka?
Mou daremo ai senai...ai subeki mono wo matanai
Oh mijime de mukuchi na kono yoru ni
Itsuwari demo soba ni ite yo yaseta to wo...
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And Now, in English
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I want to forget love
Along with the end of this world
I can never sleep, I awaken
Now, at midnight
Before I'm dead, it's not that I'm sad
My breathing stops a little bit
Before I'm dead, it's not that I'm lonely
Memories spill blood
My neighboring ambition, really quick, how...?
I don't believe tomorrow, well, is that the same as anticipating?
Before I'm dead, if I covered both of my eyes, do you think I'd be able to see the truth?
Before I'm dead, why don't we realize it, can't we learn from history?
Heavy gauge, onto the two of us cowering here on the edge of sadness
The rain of the world pours down
How many more dreams will I have to step on before I'll be able to sleep?
I don't love anybody anymore...I don't have anyone I need to love
Oh on this miserable, silenced night
Deceit, at least you be with me, ok? Squeezing my thin weak hand
Heavy gauge, onto the two of us cowering here on the edge of sadness
The rain of the world pours down
How many more dreams will I have to step on before I'll be able to sleep?
I don't love anybody anymore...I don't have anyone I need to love
Oh on this miserable, silenced night
Deceit, at least you be with me, ok? my thin weak hand...
:: Dain 8:22 PM [+] ::
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Why am I cursed to want what I can't have?
I hate this. One minute I'm happy, then I get home and my mind starts to wander into retrospect. I end up depressed as shit. I hate this.
The one thing I want in my life right now is to not be alone. To have someone I can love. Someone I can cherish and care about. But the only two people whom I have any amount of feelings for both have boyfriends. Basically, I'm fucked. And I hate it.
I'm too nice of a person to try and connive my way into breaking up their relationships without them knowing it was me. I'm just not that evil. And I never will be. I hate it.
Christ. I can't sleep, I can't think, I can't do anything because of this plaguing feeling of solitude. Fuck life. Fuck it. But there's no way in hell I'm taking the coward's way out. I'm just going to have to deal with it. Live through it and whatnot.
Did I mention that I hate this?
:: Dain 5:13 PM [+] ::
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